Jason's Philosophy

2012-02-06T20:31:00.002+08:00

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2010-01-25T22:31:00.003+08:00

Last TEN days! not much emotions...
perhaps already numb by all.
trying hard to live a life of

LEO - The Boss
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

I believe im not extrovert, i prefer being alone... doing things the way i want
but then.. sometimes i really want someone to talk to badly.
some company... perhaps u wanted only company at that time too...
only we thought too much about it. emoness???

I blame myself for being too practical, self-centered sometimes
but that is me. i wont change.
i feel stupid or even foolish to help others and being treated like a retard back in return.
i dun seek rewards but at least show u are grateful!!!
There's too many such ingrates out there...

Hence doing the "right" thing is very important!
sometimes i question... if i could live my life again, will i be a better person?
wads right and wrong is always grey.
just trying hard to be happy everyday
wad more can i say

live without regrets
live for the future
live for hope!

2009-11-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

10 weeks left...

i was mesmerized and then u became the ugly little duckling.
i was caught and u let me go.
at the end of the rainbow...
at the end of a thunderstorm...
it doesnt matter.

I must move on and i think i am...

2009-10-23T21:50:00.001+08:00

One year already and u still linger in my mind.
no worries. i can get over it.

WADEVER!

100 days left!

2009-09-23T18:43:00.001+08:00

Think i became uglier...
work hard k.

2009-09-22T23:49:00.001+08:00

Being happy is a personal choice!

2009-09-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

AdOrE

Raindrops falling from the sky
Tears dripping down cheeks
gravity is such a joker
laughing at all foolish
grieving for their losses
not looking at their possesions

losing is always more painful
than not having it
not knowing it is always a bliss
ignorance lead to regrets
regrets to losses
losses to pains

Then again,
U wished u were ignorant.
Im tired. Really tired.
I want this to end.
But i gotta keep running...

2009-09-02T01:01:00.001+08:00

always not satisfied... who says im complacent!
i just want a better life.
excuses...

2009-08-16T02:25:00.000+08:00

Beauty? Is there a guide?
back to chasing carousels.
over and over again.

2009-08-05T01:38:00.006+08:00

Sometimes We Wonder... Who Is At Fault?

Isit the friend who jokingly push the guy down the hill?
Isit the car who ran over the guy at the bottom of the hill?

Isit the guy's fault of not being able to stop rolling?

Or isit just FATE?

Everything happens for a reason. Coincidence is a lie.

Complicated world we are living in, in an illusion of reality.

Why so complicated?!?

2009-07-21T00:36:00.002+08:00

life is a puzzle
love is a maze

and i thought it was simple.
the journey has just started...

2009-07-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

left 200 out of 670 days of ns. more than 2/3 gone already. Ganbatte!

guess people just have different ways of life.
wad seems right might be wrong to others.
just be yourself and be happy with it k.
dont think so much.

2009-07-07T00:45:00.002+08:00

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2009-06-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

Sleepy... just want to live in dreams.

2009-06-09T22:35:00.003+08:00

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.
-Mother Teresa

2009-06-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

Love this song to bits. Iron & Wine - Flightless Bird, American Mouth

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
(Trying very hard to find love)
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys...
(But love is always so materialistic. plastic toys - credit cards)
and when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
(When we broke off, I realise my naive perception of love)
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere
(Try to find back the old you that i had fell in love with)

Have I found you Flightless bird,
(Are you the one? but we can't be together.)
jealous, weeping
(Sad and envy the guy you had chosen.)
or lost you, american mouth Big pill looming...
(Or is it lucky that we are not to be together)
Now I’m a fat house cat
(Tired and exhausted)
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
(Healing my broken heart)
Watching the warm poison rats
(Envy other love-poisoned couples)
curl through the wide fence cracks
(Get through life together)
Pissing on magazine photos
(Hate those loving pictures)
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
(Wooing methods that have failed)
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream
(Sacrifices I have made)

Have I found you Flightless bird,
grounded, bleeding
(Heart died and in pain)
or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down...
(Big pill-future. Is frozen at this point of time)
Feel really glad and at peace now. satisfied and complacent.
Just want this feeling to last. Fantasizing in wonderland.

2009-05-26T00:17:00.006+08:00

2009-05-25T23:49:00.007+08:00

后来
... 我总算学会了... 如何去爱歌
可惜你早已远去消失在人海词...
后来... 终于在眼泪中明白
有些人一旦错过就不再自
栀子花白花瓣落在我蓝色百褶裙上
爱你... 你轻声说网
我低下头闻见一阵芬芳
那个永恒的夜晚十七岁仲夏
你吻我的那个夜晚
让我往后的时光每当有感叹
总想起当天的星光
那时候的爱情为什么就能那样简单
而又是为什么人年少时
一定要让深爱的人受伤
在这相似的深夜里你是否一样
也在静静追悔感伤
如果当时我们能不那么倔强
现在也不那么遗憾

你都如何回忆我　带着笑或是很沉默　
这些年来有没有人能让你不寂寞
永远不会再重来　
有一个男孩爱着那个女孩

Just what I have been through
but now its just the past...

2009-05-11T23:47:00.000+08:00

Ai wo oshiete kureta
I love you, I trust you
Kimi no tare ni nagasami naga

270 days left. counting down.

2009-05-07T16:17:00.001+08:00

我的寶貝寶貝
給你一點甜甜
讓你今夜都好眠...
要你知道你最美!

2009-04-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

headache... I !dun! noe

2009-04-01T00:32:00.001+08:00

Hahaha.

Its nice to believe that everything is all planned.
Its even nicer to believe its going to turn out fine.

But you know what.
It isnt.

2009-04-01T00:09:00.005+08:00

There's gotta be more to life.
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me!
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more.

Petals of violets dancing in the wind
like the sorrowness leaving with the times.
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
Inside me, inside my life!

Will it satisfy me. I dun know till i try.
Some things are just illusions, decieving lies.

I can spend my life grieving or i can leave. just like that.
But im not so CHILDISH!
IMMATURE THOUGHTS are not allowed in this society.

One day, thy shou show u that
your's is the illusion for thy am greater.
Cry for all you want!
My heart has already turned numbed by your tears.

Believe in it and you will succeed.

BULLSHIT! start working for it now.
or you can sit there like a retard for it to happen.

2009-03-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

You once asked me whether past was important.
Whether it matters.
I once said no because i wanted to have a great future with you.
But now i think back to the PAST.
and i can tell u im wrong.
The past matters a lot.
I cant just put it into memories and forget them.
They are stuck forever.
I dunno wad to do.
Im now stuck with the past and wanna move but
reminiscence of the memories just make me wanna get them back.
Its not the bad times but the good ones.
I dunno how u feel.
Can u forget about the past that easily?

2009-03-05T01:45:00.008+08:00

You Know That
I Miss You
You Know That...

I am still

Missing You.

Come
Back
Please...
Will You?

I will be
waiting...

2009-03-05T01:35:00.004+08:00

A mistake in nature can actually turn out to be so beautiful.
It is not about making mistakes but admitting them
and changing them for the better.
Perhaps thats wad mistakes are for. To improve for the better.
Beautiful albino peacock...

2009-02-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

DePreSS ~ =(

why am i so down when i am on leave? like this whole week i am on holiday?
i dun noe. maybe its because i did wadeva i wanted and found no meaning in life...

or maybe is because everyone else around me are happy and i just cant find a reason to be happy. i need help. omg. this is frustrating.

sometimes i just feel moody the whole day thinking of wild thoughts. thinking of targets of life. the reason why we are living for. but then they are always disrupted by the regrets i have. in the past when i had such good memories... really hope to have more of them. carefree life.

2009-02-16T23:10:00.002+08:00

Its been quite some time and a lot of things happened. Life in Navy was quite interesting. gave me an experience which i really wished i never had. break ups. I wonder if wad would life be like if i dun have to be in ns. will i still be with her? her childish thoughts made me frustrated but somehow made me miss them. haiz its already so long ago. further more she has already found someone or maybe someonesssss.
i have been using this time to try to upgrade my market profile and think of wad life is. there's so much i want to do. even life in ns. although just a security guard but its eventful. lots to learn and weapons to handle. boats to manoevre sai-kang to siam and wad not. i still yet to get my boat license and learn jap and guitar. and time is so "short". no time to learn. but then i wish it would be shorter! one year to go before its heaven. 2010! thats when its my turn to find someonesssss.
i have been taking things easy. dun plan too much. thats wad ns teach. plans always change. people commit mistakes but its a crime in ns. learn so much already and im only half way there. at least now i get more welfare as im considered more experienced. old bird= king of bird. new bird = more bird more "luck".
2008 was quite eventful. 2009 let it be peaceful and fast.
suddenly feel all tired. like an old bird heaving its last breath. no more plans.
but then i have such a long way to fly. i need some motivation. target in life!
lastly, perfect doesnt seem so perfect afterall. in the search of a better lifestyle, people get sad. even when our life gets better, we get sad because it can be better. even if its perfect, we are sad because it cannot get better. and worse is if we suffer some setbacks, we get depression. thats the bad part about life. esp in singapore where failure is not forgiven.
haiz why are we living for?

more to life!

2008-12-11T21:03:00.005+08:00

Been thinking a lot!!!

Really saw so much more to life today.
Maybe because of the so many things

i can do now since im 19.

to me being 19 didnt seem so big until today.

its the last year of being a teen and the final year of ns.

one year left of relaxing, having no mental stress... completely zero.

so much had happened in the past year.

i wasnt really certain of my path, my future till now!

theres so much more to life than love.

wad is love?

is it forever?!?

in fairytale land but not in singapore!
it is fated. when it comes it comes.
no two person are alike.

love is just a test to see how much two person can tolerate one another.

the other definition of "love" is just so wrong.

Wadever will be will be!
strive for a better future!
the world is your playground! =)
One Year left to reborn!!!

2008-10-24T23:14:00.002+08:00

One must learn to love.
One must learn to love and let go.
One must learn to let go and move on.
One must learn to love himself.
Be ready to let go what you had
and ready to welcome the new.
Thats what life is, isnt it?
Birth and Death,
Love and Hate...
I just wanna be HAPPY!!!
So plz dun worry and be HAPPY!
Leave the rest all to Fate.
For you have tried your best.

2008-10-22T09:15:00.000+08:00

我好想好想好想你...
你想我吗?

2008-10-22T09:04:00.005+08:00

忍

中国人有对“忍”字的趣解，

“忍字头上一把刀”便是其一，

说得是小不忍而引身大厉害。

又有成语道“小不忍则乱大谋”

则是指因一时的不能隐忍而丧失大义。

我一定要忍!

Love is foolish

2008-09-17T11:04:00.004+08:00

They met in a library. Got together after that.
Happy or sad, they spend all their times together.
Every week, they would go to this western restaurant.
The gal likes chicken while the guy likes beef.
So everytime the gal would order chicken
while the guy would order beef.
For years, this has carried on...

One day, the guy thought of letting
the gal have a taste of wad beef taste like.
The guy thought that beef tasted better.
So he cut a piece off his plate and
put it on the gals plate.
The gal ate it.

Never did the guy knew the gal was actually allergic to beef.
Never did he knew beef will have such effects on her.
The gal blamed the guy.
They broke up.

Its the end. Or isit a new beginning?
As We Go On, We Remember
All The Times We Had Together...

2008-06-11T23:52:00.003+08:00

2 months of doing things u never thought u could have done.

2008-03-25T22:17:00.001+08:00

Tried My Best and Did Whatever I Could
Now Just Wait For The Next Step...
How "exciting" and "interesting" and "wonderful"
LiFe CaN Be!

2008-03-19T14:36:00.009+08:00

The longest wait is not created by the amount of time passed, but by your mind. Doesn’t matter how long we live as long as we live with a smile on our face.

Happiness and sadness are

not caused by your surroundings.

They’re caused by your thinking.
To be happy, you either change the

world, or you change your thinking.

To be realistic, you have to change

your thinking to be happy. But me,

I will change the world for you.

I am just like the sun and you the flower.

I’ll provide sunlight for you to blossom.
Sometimes, clouds will prevent me from reaching you.
But you’ll know that I’m always trying to reach you.
Just wait for the clouds to clear if you can’t receive my sunlight.

2008-03-19T14:25:00.009+08:00

You’re like the North Pole of a magnet bar, and I am also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There’s no way for both of us to be close together. There’s a force that’ll always push us apart. This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc. However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will stick to it. And you’ll be close to each other. That metal bar dissolves the force that pushes both of you away. And that metal bar is what we called LOVE.

Pic=Cartoonstock Words=Ibelieveyou, LowKayHwa(ReadToBelieveIt)

2008-03-15T22:21:00.000+08:00

U MUST BELIEVE!
EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!

2008-03-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

Only When It Happens. Then You Feel It.
Only When It's Too Late. Then You Regret.
When Expectations Are Too High, You Get Hurt.
Since It Is Impossible To Turn Back Time, It's Already DONE.
Life Is All About Decisions And Facing The Aftermath.
Do Your Best!

Should I Go?
Decisions=Risks=Dissapointments=Regrets
So much to let go...
Pros & Cons. I Can't Decide.
Choices Are Good. But Making A Choice Is Tough.
Opportunity costs are not comparable.
The Cost Of Any Alternative Forgone Is Just Too Great.
Suggestions And Recommendations Are Always Better Than Discouragements.
HELP!

2008-03-03T23:32:00.003+08:00

People spend their whole life waiting.
Waiting to grow old... waiting to die.
but never have they realize the joy of waiting...

Ignorance is Bliss.
isnt it?

The deaf will hear no evil.
The blind will see no evil.

2008-02-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

WhErE Is ThE LoVe?
WhErE Is ThE LoVe?

2008-02-20T01:52:00.003+08:00

Early Bird Gets The Worm, Early Worm Gets The Bird.
Elephants Are Great Liars Because They Have Long Noses.
...
为何忐忑?
Just Do It!

2008-02-20T01:40:00.004+08:00

Are You Chasing After

Carousels In The Sky?

Is It Worth It?

...

2008-02-20T01:40:00.002+08:00

- Take A Step Back Before Moving Forward
- Powerful Beyond Measure Is The Greatest Fear
- The Last Enemy That Shall Be Destroyed Is Death
- Every New Day Is A New Beginning
- All Humans Make Mistakes
- The Harder You Fall, The Higher You Bounce
- The Enemy Of My Enemy is My Friend
- Forget Bad Memories, Cherish The Good Ones
- You Will Never Lose If You Never Admit Defeat
- Believe In Yourself